It felt like traveling in time when I decided to pick Clair de Lune back up, a musical piece that is above my ability enough that it motivates me, yet not so much so, that it would paralyze me.
I went back to my parents’ house in my hometown, knowing where to look for the exact sheet music I had purchased around 18 years ago... Because that’s how much I wanted to honor this goal of mine, and the younger version of “me”.
Little did I know I was in for a surprise: there it was in the cover, a remanent of the past, a footprint of my daughter’s childhood smiling back at me in the form of a Snow White sticker she put on when she was about 6 or 7 years old (she’s 26 now!). It brought me back to the feeling of sitting at my family piano, taking a crack at the music, and my daughter “visiting” me at the piano in-between play, her most important work at the time.
I brought the sheet music to my current apartment and placed it on top of my electric piano, where I intend to sit down for around 3 lunes to practice this beauty. And when I placed it there, I noticed the little bats my little son put there last October when he had just turned 3.
These kids, born 2 decades apart, are both part of me, they have witnessed different stages of my existence, and they share space in my heart and in each other's lives. And all this realization happened after I looked in and asked myself: “what is something you would very much love to do in this lifetime?” and remembered this musical piece.
What a surprise.
What is a goal that is somewhere in the back of your mind, that pops up every now and then, and maybe you’re walking and don’t have a note pad to write it down, or you dismiss it with a “nah, too busy for these dreams”, but patiently keeps coming back to check if you’re ready now? What is something you would very much love to do in this lifetime?